PAUSE

I am staying at my daughter's house until I figure out exactly what I want to do. I want to stay close to the grandkids for a while, and there is another one on the way now. It's just that I was mentally prepared to live aboard s/v Kairos and visit islands, and experience new things. Suddenly, I find myself standing on the dock with all my stuff in a dock cart. Some days I felt a little lost, no friends, no place to go and feel 'at home'. My life is on 'pause'.

The last few days, I have made some calls, sent emails, and filled out a couple applications for work. Not sure if I wanted to work in the canvas business again, I waited until this morning to make the call to the two shops I found online. The first shop told me that they had no openings, and the second shop... I dialed the number and got a recording telling me that the call couldn't be completed. What? I tried it again, making sure that I dialed the right number, yep, same recording. This afternoon, I got a call, and an email, from the first canvas shop, wanting to talk to me. It turned out that the shop did need someone.

I saw a new friend today, and he is going to the Marquesas Keys this weekend. It's like I hear two voices: "fun, free-spirited" voice telling me, "go, have fun, enjoy, it would be awesome!" The other voice is telling me, "Lezlie, you have to get a job, find a place to stay, remember what happened the last time?" I don't like the latter voice. What I really want to do, is continue my journey, but with a more compatible captain. Who knows what tomorrow will bring.